Branding Michelle

I recently decided to move to a new apartment to save money. It completely surprised me initially why I was so hesitant to move. I was oddly concerned about not having a view anymore. This was simple enough for most people, however my view of Denver is not great. I can only see the tops of a few small buildings and a couple other large buildings that most people can see from almost any point in Denver. So I was perplexed as to why I was so scared to lose my “semi-view”.

As I walked into my dark bedroom the other night about to go to sleep, out the window were the lights of other homes and businesses and I realized that my attachment isn't about the aesthetics of the view, it is about the feeling of connection to other people out there by being able to see that they exist. It was an affirmation that I am not alone in this big city. Perhaps that is why people enjoy views so much, or maybe I am one-of-a-kind?

After that I decided to think rationally and weigh the benefits of saving money against the benefits of having a semi-view. I quickly came to realize that I should move and remove my dependence of these strangers. I can be OK living in an apartment that overlooks a parking lot. Maybe I can figure out a way to feel connected with cars now? Haha. It can be done.

Either way, it feels really good to know how to step out of myself and examine why I feel attached to something that is so miniscule in my lifetime. I think that ability to understand and manipulate emotions comes with age and only sharpens with time. When you’re young and you feel something, you don’t stop and take the time to analyze your emotions. When you are young you let your emotions affect you and overthrow you. As you age you are able to control them more steadily and you can often choose whether or not to use them. Perhaps emotions are not needed as much as we think. We glorify emotions through dramas such as Desperate Housewives and stories such as Titanic; but really… are these emotions necessary for the human race?

Sure the sunsets were pretty sometimes, but that was only a fraction of why I was so attached to the view. Letting go of emotions will often lead to bigger and better things.